I don’t drink anything carbonated

Hey guys, so this is a more personal post cause I talk about my eating disorder here so I’m gonna put a trigger warning.

TW: EATING DISORDER!!!!

Okay now that you have been warned, I can proceed. If you’re uncomfortable discussing topics like this, that’s perfectly fine and understandable cause I’m the same way sometimes about my own struggles and if not, I hope you can read this and get an insight whether you’ve experienced what it’s like to have an eating disorder or not.

So l’ve had an eating disorder probably since I was about 9 years old and it’s been manageable at times but there are obviously times I have no control over it and can’t hold down food.

I’m extremely sensitive to almost anything and everything. I feel my emotions at max and when I feel any negative emotions intensely, they need to come out and that’s when I’d throw up. I’ve never once forced myself to throw up or induced it on my own but it would just happen and I’d have to deal with it.

Anytime was sad, scared or anxious (especially anxious) I’d throw up.

When was 10, I became anorexic. I couldn’t eat or hold down food and I’m not even sure why. There was nothing really going on but anytime I ate something, it would come back up. I lost so much weight, my mother got concerned and I was in the hospital for a few days on an IV to get back some nutrients.

I wish I could say it got better but it unfortunately got worse and more intense.

When I was in high school, my anxiety worsened by far and so did my eating habits. I couldn’t even smell food at times or go to the kitchen cause if I caught a whiff of it, I’d be sick on the spot.

Once more, my mother noticed this when I was in Grade 12 and how I couldn’t eat at all but would still constantly be throwing up bile all the time. In March 2021, she took me to a doctor for it and I was put on three different medications for it just so my body would force itself to eat somehow despite the anxiety.

While on those medications, the doctor prohibited any gassy drinks so I was not allowed to drink anything carbonated or eat cabbage and beans for that three week period I was on them. I thankfully was able to eat food properly during that time period and for some months after even but for some reason was never really able to go back to soda. I found this odd cause i’d drink so much of it so often but the meds made me not even enjoy it anymore.

Even now if I try to, it just doesn’t taste right and is wayyyy too bubbly for me. It’s so gassy it actually makes my insides feel all weird so most I can do is a sip of someone is drinking one near me and even that feels like punishment.

I’m not mad at it though cause it definitely is healthier that I’m not drinking any of that especially given the sugar content.

So yeah that’s my story, I know this was a really long way of explaining why I don’t drink anything fizzy but I’m not sure how to explain the whole thing without first talking about my eating disorder. Especially cause I’ve been asked this a lot when I do turn down soda, ciders, beer, energy drinks, certain lemonades or just basically anything that bubbles cause it is out of the norm to not like fizzy stuff.

If you related to some parts of this story, I’m glad you were able to find comfort in it cause I honestly don’t think it’s possible to relate to the whole thing lol. It’s a very niche story even when I hear from people that also have their own eating disorders but other versions.

Thank you for reading and making it this far, with love Solannah 🫶🏽